By Jay Tilles
Brian “Head” Welch has been very public about his drug addictions and problems with professional and family life, and in a recent post on Loudwire, the Korn guitarist relates to As I Lay Dying‘s Tim Lambesis, sentenced to six years in prison for attempting to hire a hitman to murder his wife.
In the candid post, Welch describes one of darkest, drug-rattled evenings in 2000 where he found himself with an “8-ball or two of cocaine poured out on some tables.” Welch poured out his soul to one of his band’s road crew who “had been involved in gangs in the past and at one point was very high up in the chain of command.” Welch, high as a kite, asked him what it would take to have his wife and her new boyfriend “hurt really bad… or worse.”
Fortunately for Welch, the roadie countered with, “Head, if you cross that line, you can never go back.”
“What if he was selfish and tried to get a buttload of money out of me and encouraged me to go through with it?” Welch added. “What if he encouraged me to murder like the Tim Lambesis situation? What if, in my lowest, weakest moment, all messed up in the head on coke, I got led into agreeing on a down payment for a hit on my wife and her boyfriend? What if the hit man ended up being a felon who needed to give the cops something huge to get himself out of some big trouble he was in? I would be in a very similar situation as Tim Lambesis.
“I’m not much different than Tim,” he continued. “I don’t think any of us are. We are all capable of bad choices under the weight of heavy circumstances. Some can snap in one way and others can snap in other ways. Some people can handle more or less than others, but EVERYONE has a certain breaking point — especially if there’s other substances involved.
Welch had left Korn in 2005 in search of himself, family and God, releasing a solo album in 2008. Welch reunited with Korn in 2012 and later played on the band’s newest album The Paradigm Shift.